I'm not sleeping well. I'm not worried about her, because I know she's in good hands and it's the program's fifth year. I guess I'm thinking of her because she nor her sister have ever done this program before, so I have no idea what to expect.
My husband and other daughter and I have had discussions over picking her up on Friday. Will she be cranky? Will she be excited from having fun? We have to grab her when she hits the ground, let her have a shower and then take off for the car show in Westport. I wrote the poker run for the show so we have to be there to run it.
The poor kid will just have spent 3+ hours traveling from Bellingham, then will have to spend another 3+ hours traveling to Westport. We usually leave Friday morning for Westport, but obviously we have to wait for my daughter until the afternoon. We'll get stuck in traffic. My daughter will be tired and I won't be able to send a barrage of questions her way until she's ready. And since she'll be tired and grungy feeling (they only get two showers this week), it may be awhile. I'm sure grabbing her in the parking lot and wrapping her in my arms and hugging her for a long time will not be acceptable behavior.... I'll have to wait until she showers and she's ready for contact.
Plus I won't have time to ask her questions Saturday morning because we'll be up and running the poker run. Just writing this makes my brain ready to explode with mothering (Is it a coincidence it's so close to smothering?). She'll probably get one look at my crazy, needy face and leave the parking lot with someone else.
I'm a mother, I have needs. I better go shower my older daughter with some more attention to take the edge off.