I guess I just have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I let myself get so out of shape that I could be having these horrible muscle spasms just from walking. She prescribed Aleve and a muscle relaxer, tested my urine for blood, congratulated me on losing 20 pounds and sent me on my way.
Really what this is doing is making me more determined than ever to continue getting in shape. I've been walking a few times a week and with three whole days of sun, I've been out in the garden. I've even been a Weight Watchers member for OVER three months.
I have a longevity attitude this time and have decided to do this and spend the money on myself for myself. This journey is for me only and I've really been enjoying the comradeship of the Weight Watchers group, not to mention having a walking buddy in the neighborhood. I have to keep telling myself that I'm worth it. With every walk and every hole in my garden I've dug, I feel more empowered.
Tomorrow is the Weight Watcher's "Walk-It" challenge and my friend and I are excited to be part of the group. And since my kidney's aren't failing and the world hasn't ended yet today, I guess I'm still not dying.
At least not right now.